Coz my mind is vaster than my vocabulary

For me, clarity is painful and unacceptable but that harsh reality which I need to know for improving myself. Maybe because that is the right thing to be done. still, it doesn't feel wrong to be irrelevant sometimes.

All of our minds are full of many things. things we're aware of, things we're unaware of, things we want to happen, and things we never want to happen with us. Yes, exactly the thing that popped up in your mind after reading the last sentence. It's there in your mind, living under the shadows of your insecurities and things you're trying to escape from.

It's fine to let yourself do it

“I may sound stupid saying this- you surely are not aware of what the results will be but you're aware of the possible consequences. Then what is stopping you from doing it?”

My mind is so full of things but, empty at the same moment. It has things- uncertain and temporary which are surely leaving marks in permanent. They give scars to my mind but in a happy way. I'm actually happy that they're here. Maybe I've lost my sense of feeling, maybe I can't differentiate the real emotions these days. I'm not scared, I'm not upset, I'm happy neither. I'm wandering down the roads of my imagination and desires that are completely based on my fantasies. You must be thinking what kind of wierdo she is, who doesn't even know how to spell weirdo.

Yes I'm unaware of my existence

“Be original, show off your style, and tell your story.”

My mind says a lot of things at the same time. It asks for peace and for chaos together. It wants to forget its way home while thinking of someone. I was once told- "I like living like this, I'm used to living like this." Well, I can't define what this scenario is!

Get Inspired

With these confusions and uncertainties, I'm completely fine and I'm sure many of you are going through the same. For me, clarity is painful and unacceptable but that harsh reality which I need to know for improving myself. Maybe because that is the right thing to be done. Still, it doesn't feel wrong to be irrelevant sometimes. Think about how you can make yourself feel better even amidst these blurry scenes. Good luck!